A Day in the Life: Decaf Brews, Personal Havens and Guilty Pleasures

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Hey everyone, you're listening to 5 Years Time with your host, grace Black. Back to 5 Years Time podcast. I am so excited that you've joined us. If you're new, welcome, welcome. If you're an old, cutie, I love you forever. You know it. Anyways, this week we are talking about a new beginning to.

Speaker 1: 0:39

Something I think I mentioned on last week is how my caffeine intake has gone up, up, up, up up. But I had a realization yesterday and I'm excited to share all about it. But before we get into that, let's do our weekly recap. I'm also coming at you, fully just me, to you, to Mike. No iPad, no plan. I feel like that is my favorite way to podcast. The only time I really need like a directional plan is if I'm doing like a recap on something like when I was doing last week. It's like I need it to like map out what the memories were and I would assume, if I have guests on, I haven't had guests in a long time. I don't think I've done guests in like over a year. I used to have guests on all the time and I feel like I'm getting to that point where maybe I want guests on again. I'm not sure. Let me know what you think about guests, and if there's certain people that you would like to hear a conversation between you or you listener between me and somebody, let me know, let me know. But anyways, let's get into this week's recap. So we had our first week of school, so we're officially back into like the sewing of things. Summer is I'm not going to say over, because we all know summer ends in a couple weeks, but we are into the routine of things, right, and so that's felt good. Last week felt really good and I feel like the beginning of this week felt not so really good. I don't know, yesterday was very much a Monday Monday I'm recording this on a Tuesday but I felt like this week's Monday was a Monday Monday. But last week was really good, rose, happy to be back at school.

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I am, I think, re figuring out. I haven't been alone for a while, like I haven't been on my own since like the beginning of August, I think. Yeah, because I had row for a week. I was gone for a week, then I had row home. So it's like back to being on my own, and it's always an adjustment.

Speaker 1: 2:40

When I come back to being on my own, I always feel like, oh, I'm kind of alone all the time. I always want to figure out how to not be so alone and, like I love my alone time, I love being able to recharge, I love my own space, like I love it. But at the same time it's like I also have that extroverted side and me. I feel like I also love to feed off other people's energies and spend time with people, and so I just need to figure out how to like implement more person to person contact in my day, and that's something I'm setting a goal for myself this year to really to really figure out how to I don't know. I think I need to reach out to more people, become a little more in person, social, or maybe join a class that happens during the week or something.

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But then I also always have this issue where I get like overwhelmed at the idea of making a commitment. Like I'm not not a commitment cutie, like I do love a commitment and I feel like I'm a very committed person. I will like follow through on whatever I say I'm going to do, but at the same time, like I think that's why I'm like worried some, because it's like, oh, if I sign up for something, then like is that, like every single Thursday, I have to be free to do that, but then I don't have the flexibility. What if? Something comes up and it's like what if, what if? Get there. When you get there, stop thinking the what ifs. I think that's something that I'm pretty good in some aspects of my life, but in other places it's like I'm always thinking about the what ifs, the what ifs. Anyways, I'm trying to think.

Speaker 1: 4:13

This weekend we had a nice family weekend. It was so calm, we had no plans. This is our first weekend where we really had no plans and we could just do our own thing and we really did. Like. Row has been obsessed going to this park that has like a. It's called happy Ralph's, if you're from around here, but it has like a. I wanted to call it a petting zoo, but it's not a petting zoo. It has like a farm where you can see the animals, and then there's a new park that they put in like playground and then it also has like fun trails down to the lake. It's a cool place. So we've been going there like a lot. So of course this weekend she wanted to do that again.

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So Friday I think, we came home, had dinner and then went out to the park. I think we got ice cream. Yeah, we did. We went to McDonald's and we got ice cream, and then we had a nice evening at the park and then we went to bed and then first thing Saturday morning it was of course I want to go to the park. So we had some breakfast we went to.

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We needed to go help a friend who's moving, so we went over there to go through some of their stuff, because they are moving somewhere where they are not really taking anything. So they're trying to get through all their stuff and I'm getting two exciting pieces of furniture from them which I have been like yearning for. And I'm very much in this part of my life where I feel like, or this phase where I feel like this winter, like fall winter, I really want to work on making the house more I don't know if homie is the right word, but like filling in the gaps that I never did, like we never. When we moved in we really had nothing because we came from a condo, so we just had like the bare minimum, and then I ordered it was middle of the pandemic, so I ordered a bunch of furniture from Structube which has gotten us through and it's been great.

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I'm not replacing any of that furniture, but just adding in, because we never like we never did window coverings. We also need to replace our windows. I feel like this is a 30 year going on saying we need to do our windows, but it's just not the time yet. But I was waiting until we were going to do our windows to do window coverings. But now I'm thinking I might just like bite the bullet and get just like a rod and start thrifting some curtains, because I think it would just like add that extra bit of warmth. And so actually I'm getting three exciting furniture pieces. I totally forgot, but anyways, there's these few things that I've just been wanting but haven't like committed to and like I feel like in August I was thinking like, oh, this is what I want to do.

Speaker 1: 6:43

I've been really clearing out. Like every week I've been like focusing on at least one area, not necessarily a whole room, but maybe a pantry or a cupboard or a closet, and like really clearing out and just making us like I don't want to say bare bones, but like getting rid of all the clutter, and then I want to welcome in like purposeful things. So I have three exciting things coming. One is my old vanity table, which I had at my mom's house, who my mom had given to this friend, who now has painted it and found a cute chair for it. And now it's coming back to me and I'm so excited.

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I've been craving a vanity, somewhere to be able to sit and have my belongings. That's my stuff, because we all share a bathroom meet Trevor and Roe and so all our stuff is just like you know, not everyone it has the same routine. They don't put the things back where you would want them to be or whatever. So I'm just looking forward to having like a space that's mine where I can sit down and get ready and I used to love Watching a show and doing my hair or playing with makeup, like I used to love doing that every morning or whatever. I was getting ready, like that was like my one of my favorite things, and then I have such fond memories of doing that at that same table. So I'm excited to bring it back and I think I'm gonna put it in our room Because our room has space for it, but we'll see what I decide.

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And then we're also getting this little hutch which, as soon as I saw it I was like, ooh, if you don't want that hutch, like I will take it, because in our living room we have this corner that really needs something. It needs a furniture of some sort, and it's not a seating furniture, it needs like a decorative furniture, and so this hutch is perfect. It's kind of I think it might be a writing table I'm not a hundred percent sure like back in the day when you Used to get mail and write letters. You have these like tables that had like a Storage area where you'd keep like your envelopes and your pens and whatever, and then it has shelving underneath of it which she's currently using as bookshelves. I'm not sure what I'm gonna use it as, but I'm so excited for it.

Speaker 1: 8:38

And this one corner is where I get like beautiful light and I keep saying this year is the year of my plants, and by year I mean like this part of the year going into, obviously, the winter. I will take care of it still, but I Really want to get one houseplant. I've never been able to keep a plant alive. Oh, I forgot, I was brewing a tea, so let me just take that tea bag out. Oh, little spoiler for drink of the week. One second. I've been recording for eight minutes and I started seeping it even before I started recording. That's okay, I'm excited anyways.

Speaker 1: 9:14

Yeah, so I Was talking about the hutch. What was I talking about? Someone remind me, someone remind me, anyway. So, oh, yeah, plants. So I really want to get one plant. And Another thing about me is sometimes I start something I'm like I need everything, all of it, but it's like I just want to get one plant and see if I can make it survive, and then, when I feel confident with that plant, I can add more. But it would be nice In this corner where I can put it on this hutch, so that it's like not sitting on the ground. So, yeah, I'm looking forward to that.

Speaker 1: 9:45

And then so vanity hutch. And then this other thing which I guess is truly a hutch. She's using it as a bookshelf right now, but I want to use it. I think I'm going to put it in our kitchen and I want to use it. To the first of all, there's two hooks on it, which is perfect, because I know where to hang my what are they called? No bathrobe Aprons. I've nowhere to hang my apron, so I keep them in a drawer, which means that I never use them. And I'd love to use my apron more often, and I know Trevor would probably like to use his more often too, especially for spottery food. So it has two hooks on it, so that's great because I can keep my aprons out and about, and then I would love to display all my fun thrifted glassware and dishes on there and then I feel like I'll reach for stuff more often and also just like have it as part of like the kitchen vibe. So I'm very much looking forward to that, but I don't think that's going to be coming for Till later in October. But I can't wait.

Speaker 1: 10:41

So that was one thing we did on Sunday was went over there, helped her out and then we had it to the park and then row really wanted to go to McDonald's for lunch. So we went to McDonald's so she could play at the play place and there you have new toys. Whenever they switch over the toy she's like, oh, I gotta get whatever the new toy is. And I tried the new make. What is it called? It was a bacon ranch McCrispy. It was really good. I'm not typically a ranch cutie, but I love the McDonald's ranch snack wraps and it's like the same type of ranch. It was really, really good. So I'm glad I chose that.

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Then we came back for nap time and just chilled for a bit. I'm trying to think what we did in the afternoon. I really feel like we just like chillaxed about and Roamed and just chilled, like we just had a really relaxing weekend. And then Sunday the same thing we had like a relaxing morning and then we went to church and it was like the welcome back Sunday after Summer, where, like, more people are back in routine, and so we had like a barbecue and that was nice, played lawn games. And then Sunday afternoon we came back for a nap time.

Speaker 1: 11:45

And then I'm trying to think oh yeah, trevor made the most delicious Korean beef. It's my favorite and he made it, which was even better because I just got to eat it and I'm gonna have the leftovers for lunch today. I got to make rice because we don't have more rice, but I'm so excited because I'm so hungry, even though I had a delicious breakfast, I'm like so hungry. I always feel like at 10 am it's 10 am. Right now it's 10 o'clock actually. Oh, it's 10 o'clock too, so I knew it's like every day at 10. It's like, oh, I could go for lunch, like I could eat all my meals in the morning, or until like 2 pm and like Just be happy with that, because I don't know like that's where my hunger levels are there, always earlier in the day, and yeah. So I think that's all we did this weekend.

Speaker 1: 12:26

And then yesterday was just such a Monday. Monday I was like in such a grumpy, strange, irritable mood and it's and I don't think it has to do with my cycle, because, like where I'm out of my cycle, I should be at like my pep in my step, like rock and roll ovulation, ready to go. So, yeah, I was like something is off. I actually vlogged, having like a mini breakdown Over something. I couldn't find a spoon, and it was like I literally thought I was gonna cry about it. And I happen to have been vlogging while I was doing it and I will just like we'll see the vlog. It'll be up this weekend, but anyways, we're gonna talk about that in this week I learned. So let's hop into our snack and drink of the week. I've made a cozy cup of tea. Yeah, okay, cute, I love Tea.

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I used to be such a tea drinker before. I was a coffee drinker. Really I used to be such a tea drinker and Earl gray has always been my favorite. This is an Earl gray and I do have decaf Earl gray, I think actually is by last back recently. I'll have to get some more. I need to up my tea stash again because I'm back into the tea mode. But I friend over last week and I was like hey, what do you want? This is what I have to offer, like I can make any coffee. I'm just getting into the matcha and I have a bunch of different teas. He was like oh, a cup of tea is great, so you want a peppermint, and I love peppermint tea. That's one of my favorite, favorite, favorite teas that I used to drink every afternoon when I worked in an office.

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I would go to the kitchen and make my peppermint tea and a little snack plate, and if it wasn't a snack plate, then it was a cookie. And I you, oh, yeah, oh my gosh, the what are they called? Stoop waffles. You know the like Dutch waffle cookie with the caramel on the inside. I used to love those and you'd rest it on top of your cup.

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One time I lost it. I left the office. Oh my gosh, this is so funny. I used to. You're supposed to rest it on top of your cup, these stoop waffles I don't know if I'm saying that right. I hope I am Are you supposed to rest on top of your cup for like just a few seconds to warm it? And so I had rested on my cup and then Someone needed something.

Speaker 1: 14:31

So I ended up walking out of the office and like doing something else, and I came back and I was like I swear I got a cookie and it wasn't there. And I was like I thought I did, I thought I did, I thought I did. I'm like thinking, retracing my steps. I'm like I swear I have gotten a cookie. And then I was like whatever, I'll just go to the kitchen get another one. So I went to the kitchen, got another one, came back and I eat my cookie drinking my tea, and I get all the way to the bottom. And it had sunk to the bottom. My cup was just wide enough that when it melts it for too long, it just like sunk in, like fold in half and sunk in and slipped in, which was too funny. But anyways, I used to love peppermint tea and I still do, but I, I used to have it every single day like love, love, loved it. And I am so excited to say that I'm re-entering my tea era, which is great because, as we will get into, I'm back to decaf cutie and there's so many great decaf tea options and especially as the weather gets colder, it's just so much nicer.

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And can we just mention this morning when I woke up, I was, it was pitch black and I had fallen asleep with a row. So row was like I'm hungry. I was like, oh, let's just wait a little bit. Like it was so dark. I was like there's no way, it's time to wake up. And then she was like okay, and then one minute later she was like mom, can you go downstairs? And I was like let's see what time it is. So I like asked Google. She has a Google in her room. I was like, hey, what time is it? It's like 6 29. I'm like it's 6 30. Like that's like a sleeping for us, like we're normally rope and wake up at like 10 to 6, and that'd be like let's get up and go. I was like, oh my gosh, I need one of those hatch alarms, like the one with the lights in it because I literally it was. I was having a hard time. I think that always happens during this transition.

Speaker 1: 16:12

But anyways, back to my drink. So I'm very much into, as the weather is getting cooler and the darkness is coming in, warm cups of cozy tea. And this one is actually when we got, when we stayed at a hotel, they gave us a like their signature blend, and I was like, oh, I'm gonna make that one, cuz I knew a sea cap, so let's try it together. I think I had it while I was there, but we'll try it. Cheers to also it's gonna be so strong because it accidentally over steeped it. Mmm, ooh, it is very strong, but it's delicious kind of has. I feel like this might just be because it's too strong, but it kind of has a licorice, the undertone to it. Mmm, yum, there's something, there's some power is in tea, isn't there? Like tea can be such a healing thing.

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There's so many different things, especially, especially if you're having good quality teas like I know that there there's so much Not drama, but like I sometimes get on the side of tiktok where I'm learning, like, how, like Tetley tea bags, I'm not necessarily. I don't know if it's Tetley, so I didn't know if I want to say the brand, but like red rose and stuff. I actually think red rose is the better one, but like there's like bleach teabags and like you might not actually you think you're Steep yourself into health but you might not be like the best. I'm not saying it's bad, but you know what I mean. But if you can get like loosely fresh teas, there can be such power in them and I'd love to learn more about that.

Speaker 1: 17:42

I actually went to a tea workshop last year with mingle hill and they only do cool climate teas because they grow in Ontario and so Like peppermint and sumac's and any chamomile things that you can grow here but you can't grow like Like Earl gray tea leaves bergamot. I'm like what's an Earl gray bergamot? You can't grow that type of stuff. Maybe you can grow bergamot. I'm not totally sure about that, but I'm pretty sure, no. Anyways, it was very interesting and I did learn a lot of stuff about that. I wonder if I still have the paper from that, because they gave us like a whole information sheet and Actually that's a good resource that I know.

Speaker 1: 18:20

I'm gonna be at mingle hill in a couple weeks for our pickle workshop, which I'm so excited about and is already sold out. But I can't wait and so maybe I'll pick up some teas while I'm there, because they make I think they sell loose sleep Individuals, but they also make their own blends. Oh, oh, oh, I'm excited. So, anyways, I feel like I'm getting into like this tea era where it's just fun and it's fun to learn. I love education. It makes it a hobby. Hobby, anyways, cheers. Cute you, mmm, delicious, okay, and my snack of the week. Oh, cuties, I am obsessing. Well, actually, my husband started this.

Speaker 1: 19:00

Trevor is obsessing over microwave popcorn at the moment and I used to. Back in the day, me and my friend Neela were obsessed with Orville Red and Bakkers microwave popcorn, but they had this one flavor. It was called like white butter or something. It was white something. It wasn't cheese, it was a butter, it was a specific type of butter. It was so freaking good and I actually had just asked Trevor. I was like do you think they still have that? And he's like I don't know, I need to look. I don't think they do. I feel like they don't make as many fun different popcorns as they used to, but it was the best popcorn ever.

Speaker 1: 19:32

Anyways, trevor just got like I'm sure it's like double butter or whatever, like movie butter, orville, red and Bakker and he's been putting ketchup flavoring on it. That's like his. Every night he's been having that and I am. I was, I've always been taking like a handful of his. But then the other day I made my own and I was like, ooh, and I know my microwave popcorn is like got all the chemicals and stuff on it and like you can make the stove top. We always go through stove top phases. Like Trevor loves stove top, I've got my air popper. That's the worst thing in the world because it pops like for one minute and then it's like too hot and has to cool down. I don't mind making stove top, but there is some so delicious about microwave popcorn, yum. So yeah, I've been loving the microwave popcorn right now and it's just so fun and easy to make Good mems. So I've been enjoying my tea and my microwave popcorn.

Speaker 1: 20:22

Okay, cutes, let's get into. This week I learned. I learned that this cutie went caffeine free for a reason, which actually I'm so happy, because I was having kind of like a MB. Is that what the people say Menti breakdown, mental breakdown about caffeine and stuff like that. So a little backtrack.

Speaker 1: 20:58

I do not drink caffeine. For the past year I've not drank caffeine. I have had caffeine. Obviously there's caffeine in lots of things like chocolate and stuff. And then sometimes on Fridays, when I go to Starbucks, if I want it a matcha or a nitro, like I would get my caffeine drink. Or if I was out and about and they didn't have a caffeine free option but I still want it to partake in a coffee, then I would get it. But like day to day, I would drink decaf beans, which still has a bit of caffeine in it, I'm pretty sure. And just like create, keep my ritual of making a beverage. Like you all know me, I love my coffee machine, I love making a coffee, I love getting a little fun, little fresh, little mixy moo in the kitchen.

Speaker 1: 21:41

So, but last year around this time it was the end of August last year, 2022, I was just feeling so unsettled. I felt a lot of different things and there were two things that I was consuming that could make me feel that way and had in the past, like on specific occasions, which was one caffeine. I have always been like I don't want to say like sensitive to caffeine in the sense, but like I had always been always only been able to drink really like one cup of coffee a day, and so I would always just choose wisely when that was going to be, like if I felt I wanted it in the morning or the afternoon, like whatever, but like I would never really drink any more than that. And two was I was taking a allergy pill. It was reacting and I find allergy pills like that just, and I was taking it religiously like every single day for the season, like from spring till fall. I would have to take this because it would.

Speaker 1: 22:39

I, my allergies would just be out of control. I got the worst allergy headaches and it was just like horrible and for reactant for me if I, when I start taking it, the first week is really atrocious. Like it just makes me feel so bad, like just not like sick, but just like lethargic and unsettled, and just like it's a really hard week for me and I lose focus, concentration, I get cloudiness, but then once I'm like acclimated to it, I'm fine, which is why I just take it like all the time, like for the whole season, and then if I forget or I get off my grind, it takes a lot for me to get back on it, but like it's yeah anyways. So it was the end of August and it was like okay, my fall allergies are going to start picking up again. Do I want to lose the reactant or is it the coffee Like what's making me feel this way? Because I was just like feeling weird, but I wasn't.

Speaker 1: 23:32

I hadn't changed up any of my routine, like I was still taking my reactant. It wasn't the new week that I was taking it. I had already acclimated and I was still drinking my coffee like normal and I was like you know what? I'm just going to ditch both of them because I maybe I just need to see like go cool turkey, see how my body's feeling and like figure it out. Because those were the two real things like drugs in my life that I was taking that were not like food or whatever that I needed to have. So I was like I'm just going to cut them out, like we're just going to see what happens. Oh my gosh, I did it. And those that first week I think it was to the first week for sure was like I was like walking through a world with like blurry glasses on, like it was horrible. I just remember I was like oh gosh, and then I think it one more week. It took two weeks really, and then I was fine.

Speaker 1: 24:22

My allergies were really fine last fall and I was fine without the caffeine. I switched to having decaf and I was totally fine and it was like a game changer. I felt like I like rebalanced myself. I was feeling so much better. I was feeling way more in tuned with how I was feeling, like I was able to kind of figure out like my it didn't affect my cycle, but I was more so able to figure out what my cycle was and when my good weeks were, when my tired weeks were, when my energized weeks were like all of that stuff, and so I just felt like way more in control of how my day was going, in the sense that I wasn't using anything as a crutch, and so my energy levels were more balanced and in tune and I was able to figure out what my real energy levels were. Anyways, I had a great year. It was fabulous.

Speaker 1: 25:13

Then I went away and I had no plan to change this. And then I went away and again I'd have coffee like here or there, like full caffeinated coffee here or there, and for me I find like coffee is fine as long as I'm expending physically, expending that energy, like I my energy. I have enough energy without it for the most part, but if I am going to have it like it's in a situation where I know I'm going to use it, like it's going to be a long day, I'm going to be working on my feet all day, I'm going to be doing stuff like that. So, anyways, then fast forward. I was running our church's Bible camp and so that's a time where I'm literally going to be go, go, go, go, go all day. And so I was like, heck, yeah, let's have one coffee the first day and see what happens. I felt fine and then it was like, okay, I need this coffee, like I was not needed, but like I am going to have caffeinated coffee this week just because I feel like I need that energy boost and I'm using it all day. So that's what I did.

Speaker 1: 26:17

Then, right after that, I went to BC and I got there first thing in the morning, after being at a wedding all night and then flying out at like 4am or whatever, and the second I got to the airport. I was like I have to have and I needed to battle the jet, like right. So I was like I need a nitro cold brew. And then in BC I was just drinking coffee every day, sometimes two coffees. I was just living the coffee life and it was just like I was really just fueling myself because I hadn't had a chance to like acclimate to the real time and whatever.

Speaker 1: 26:51

And then I came home and I had row all week and I'm like, okay, I'm back, I need coffee. So I'm back to having one coffee, two coffees a day, like not even that's more than what I would normally ever have. Then I was like maybe I just drink caffeine now, like is this just who I am? And so then then last week I was drinking caffeine all week but I'm back to just being on my own in my normal schedule, like same energy that I would normally expend back when I was drinking no coffee. And so I was drinking a coffee every day, caffeinated cup of coffee every day. And then all of a sudden, yesterday I drank my caffeinated coffee and it just hit me like I was having such a bad energy day in the sense that I felt like I had so much stuff and I just felt like so pent up on the inside and I was getting so irritable and frustrated and everything was making me feel so and I was not in that place in my cycle like I should be, at the place where I feel high energy, ready to go take after the day, like at my top, feeling so positive, feeling myself, feeling so good, like that's where I am in my cycle. And I was not feeling that and I was like it's the coffee. I just it was like a flashback, I, it was a, it was a feeling I knew oh, so well and oh, fast forward on the sense of reactin.

Speaker 1: 28:11

I stopped taking that. I haven't taken that all night. You, I haven't taken that for a whole year. I'm on a new allergy thing, flow nays, which is like amazing and does not affect me in the same way at all. And you take it through your nose, you like, you inhale it I don't know snort it, you spray it into your nose, breathe it in, and it's like a game changer for me. So I will hype up flow nays to anyone who has seasonal allergies. And I actually just took it again this morning because I could Trevor mode the lawn this morning, but I already woke up with a little sneeze and I was like all those fall allergies are coming.

Speaker 1: 28:48

But I find that I don't have to take it religiously, like I just have to take it for a week or, and not even you're supposed to do two sprays, but sometimes I only do one. Like I did one spray this morning and I just take it when I need it and it's like and I feel like totally fine on it. So, anyways, I just want to put that out there. But yeah, so I knew 100% that this was caffeine related. I just like knew it. Anyways, I didn't want to like I don't have any, I don't have any decaf beans at the moment, and that's more just for the purpose of like it's nice to have your routine right, like waking up, making a cup of coffee. Sometimes I won't even do it in the morning, it's like I do it now or I'll do it before I go pick up row. It's just nice to have that routine and I love making coffee, like I really do. I love the process of it and I enjoy it.

Speaker 1: 29:35

So this morning I woke up and I was like you know what yesterday was totally about caffeine. I've like I'm done, I'm back, I'm on, I'm on Ontario time, I'm back into my normal routine and schedule and I don't need coffee anymore like it's making me feel really it's doing the complete opposite of what it what, what I would want it to do. It's not I'm not feeling productive, I'm feeling really and just like irritable and lethargic and like it's not even busy. It's not a busy feeling, it's just like a. It's always for me. It's just I feel so off. It's like I almost feel like I'm getting sick, like a getting a cold or something, but like you never get a cold, you just always feel like me.

Speaker 1: 30:23

So this morning I woke up and I was like you know, I'm going to make a matcha which has caffeine in it and typically back in back in the day, back when I was caffeine free Just a couple weeks ago, I would have matcha on Fridays as my Starbucks drink because you know I'm all obsessed with that matcha milk situation. So I was like I bought that matcha in Vancouver to try and make for myself. So I'm going to matcha and this morning, and matcha is a caffeine that is slowly I almost dropped my tea that is slow release, so it doesn't have the same, it doesn't give you that same feeling of coffee, caffeine and I was like this will be my transitional phase to the decaf life or back to drinking majority decaf and only having caffeine here or there, and yeah, so that's what I did and I already feel so much better for it. And even this morning I woke up feeling so, and I bet you I know that has to do with the light, like I told you, it was so dark, but I and I've always been someone who can just wake up, like in the morning. For sure, during the transition periods it's hard, but like I've always been someone who, like, when I wake up, I'm up, like it's like the day is ready, I'm ready to go, and I bet you that now that I'm going back onto the no caffeine ways, that's going to help my like wake up and my sleep and everything like that. And so, yeah, I'm just feeling so much better for having that confirmation.

Speaker 1: 31:49

Also, like it feels really good to know that a year ago when I made that decision to go caffeine free, that that is that it was that, and now I'm confirmed that that's helped in that caffeine is there for when I need it, like in those situations when you're traveling and you're working long days and stuff like that. Like for sure for me, like that is totally fine, but I know on other like physically working days for me is always expanding the physical energy. But I know for my day to day life and the way that I use my energy that caffeine doesn't really serve good purpose for me and I'm just happy to have that confirmation and I'm excited to go by my my hard boy decap beans, which have been my favorite. I experimented with a lot but those ones I'm stuck on because I love them. But if anyone has any other racks, like let me know. But I'm just like excited to be back and that makes me feel like I am taking care of myself and it always feels good when you know you're taking care of yourself because a lot of the times I feel like I don't I always put myself last. I have so many podcast episodes about this, but I always put myself last, like I always do. And that's another reason I'm really looking forward to when my vanity table comes, because I'm just looking forward to having a space where literally that space is for me to put myself first, like just play with my hair and have fun with makeup or skincare and watch a show. Like I'm in my sanctuary. Like you know, it's a table in an area of a room that is shared, but that is my space for me to just like decorate it the way I want. Not that I don't get to decorate the house the way I want, but just like have it organize the way that I want. And it's my little space. So I'm really excited for that. But I am back on the decap life and I suggest to any of you if you ever feel like that, that feeling that I was describing, where you're just like, oh and so irritable and you know it's a time in your cycle or a time where you wouldn't usually be feeling that way like I suggest, like try, try, going it, because it's nice, it's nice to know that caffeine is there for when you need it, but like and then I don't need it when it's there, like it really helped me, like when I was in Vancouver and when I was running the camp, like that was fantastic, like and I was just able to boop, bop and get so much stuff done and really like be alive and awake for the experience, instead of like sucking into what is it called travel travel leg, chat leg. I was like what is that called? So, yeah, I just, I love that it's there when I need it, but I know that I don't need it on a day to day basis and I get to enjoy other fun drinks that are decaf. So, mm, oh, I feel like I didn't even recap. I'm trying to think.

Speaker 1: 34:46

When I recorded the podcast last week, cuties, did I even tell you when we went to my sister-in-law's birthday and we went downtown for the Tiff event? Did I talk about that? I don't think I did. Should I just add it in here? Okay, I'm just going to add it in here. I'm trying to think when I record it, because that was a Wednesday night, so I definitely would have already recorded the podcast.

Speaker 1: 35:07

Another thing that I did last week I hope you don't mind that I'm throwing this in here. Another thing that I did last week we were done on the Cafe Talk. I was just going to go to Rose's Buds Thorns. Oh, I guess I could do that as my rose. That's more cohesive concurrent, what is the word? Anyways, yes, so, cuties, I'm back to the Decaf Live. Love you all and I'm excited to be back in this time. Okay, let's move on to Rose's Buds Thorns. I'm just kidding. Okay, so we had a little. I already gave you a little sneak peek on about my Rose.

Speaker 1: 35:50

This week was so my Rose was last week. We went to Toronto on Wednesday. Me and Trevor had it down because I had a Tiff event that I was invited to through my management. So I got to meet a few people on my management team, which was exciting and fun, and it also happened to line up on my sister-in-law's birthday and she was having a birthday party, so it was perfect because she lives in Toronto. So it was just like a fluent thing. Fluent is like speaking one thing, fluid thing. It just worked out well. It was go with the flow. I don't know. Honestly, cuties, you all know me and my words. So we had it down.

Speaker 1: 36:27

We dropped Ro off at my mom's for she was gonna have a sleepover at my mom's, and then we had it down around like three o'clock and Trevor worked in the car. So I had to drive and I forgot to pack myself a snack in that situation when I was driving and all of a sudden I was like I'm so hungry and there was like traffic. That's like one of the worst times to go downtown. But anyways, we got downtown, found parking and we were early to the event. So we went to I think it was called something poet, the bar poet, I don't even know. We were on Queens, to your West and I feel like I'd been there once before, but then when we went inside it looked different.

Speaker 1: 37:06

So I don't know if I had, but we sat on the patio, got a drink and Trevor really wanted to get like a meal, but then I was like I don't know, because I'm going for the dinner and then I'm sure there'll be nibble bits and I didn't wanna fill up. So we just got an app. We got some garlic-y garlic toast, cheesy, cheesy garlic toast and I think it had a sauce on it of some sort. It was almost like a little pizza bite, but it was really delicious. And Trevor got a really fun drink. It was. I would have ordered that next time.

Speaker 1: 37:33

I just got a vodka soda. Situation. It wasn't a vodka soda, I'm lying to you, but it was like a vodka bubbly, fruity, just like a fruity vodka drink and it kind of tastes like a starburst or a sour batch I can't remember which candy, but it was fine. But Trevor's was fun because it was like a Miller's. It was a. I don't know if it was a Miller's light, it was a beer, it was a Miller's beer. And then they'd like in the jar, in the jar, in the bottle, and they poured out some of it and then they put in apparel and I feel like maybe they put in one other thing, but it's basically it was an apparel spritz but made with beer and it was actually really good and I thought that would be fun to make at a party because, like you could just pour out a little bit of beer and put in the apparel or like take a sip or whatever. But that'd be fun to make and it came in a cute little bottle. But yeah, so anyways, that was good.

Speaker 1: 38:26

And then we had it over to the event and we were only gonna stay until like 730 or so because Lawrence Center started at eight and I was like, so we went like first thing, which I am first of all, I love to be on time, but also I used to, anytime I've gone to like influencer event, I used to like think, not think it was cringy to go on time, but I would always go on time and then feel like, oh, it's a little awkward because, like you're literally the first person there. A lot of people don't come till later, but if you are working an event, I just need to put it out there. It is the best to go on time because literally nobody's there. You can get all your content. If that's what you wanna do, take your pictures, be first in line for any of the activations. Like you get to experience the whole thing before it's busy and you can get your work portion out of the way. So I just wanna say it's actually good to be on time, but anyways, I didn't mind, we were going on time because I just wanted to go to both these things.

Speaker 1: 39:21

So we went and I knew they were. It was like with Shark Beauty. So I knew they were gonna have like the Shark Beauty, like blow dryers, you know, like the Dyson ones, but the Shark version, and they were gonna do blowout. So I was like, oh, I wanna try that out, like I wanna get to participate in that, and so it was perfect. I didn't have to wait in line or anything, cause I knew that would fill up quick. So got my hair, did, got some drinks and I was just worried that my management team wasn't gonna get there before I left and I didn't wanna be rude Like I was, like I have to stay and say hi to them cause I was the same bite of me and I wanna meet them, but I also don't wanna be late for Lauren's birthday. But anyways, it all worked out. They came just like a little bit later and I was able to meet them and then able to have like a couple more drinks and then we had it out.

Speaker 1: 40:04

So Trevor was our DD for the night, which we love, trevor, thank you. So Lauren was like very specific, no boys allowed at dinner. So I was like, oh no, trevor's gonna have to figure out where he's gotta go. But it actually worked out perfect, because our dinner was like right by Roy Thompson Hall, which is where Trevor used to work, and he has friends who still work down there and they were having. So he was like, oh, maybe I can just go with them after work. But then they actually were ending it. They ended up having some like I don't know, celebration of some sort. So everyone was there, like not everyone that he knew, but there was a bunch of people. So he was able to go and like hang out with them at some restaurant bar that was close by to where I was going. So that was perfect.

Speaker 1: 40:45

So we went over to the Roy Thompson Hall. We parked under there that's like the best place to park if you're around there and then he went one way and I went the other way and so I went out for dinner. Oh sorry, my thing just chimed so loud. But so we went out for dinner at this Greek restaurant. I think it was called Blobes or Blobes or I don't even know what it was called. But anyways, I didn't plan it, I just showed up. So that was fun. I got to see some old friends of Lauren that I knew and then meet new friends of hers, and then also Becca was there. Becca's just come home and oh, becca's gonna come over for dinner tomorrow. Probably I need to talk to Becca. Anyways, becca's back in town, so that's my other sister-in-law and she was working up north for the summer, so she was there and I got to see her for the first time in a while. I know she's back at school, so we're back to weekly dinners, which is so exciting. And yeah, it was just like overall a fun dinner, catching up and meeting new people and gabbing Although I had to yell so loud I felt like I was talking so loud because the restaurant was so loud and I like had no voice by the end of dinner.

Speaker 1: 41:51

I was like, why do I have no voice? Also, I was drinking so much. Like, oh my gosh, we just kept getting bottles of wine and I'd already drank a bunch at the place before and I was like, oh gosh, this is like the one time of the year it's always Lauren's birthday that I just like have no end, no end in sight. I just like forget. It's like I become a child again, not a child, but like a young 20s person, and just like don't remember to take care of myself. But anyways, we were having a good time.

Speaker 1: 42:25

And then we had it back to Lauren's for like a pajama party where boys were then allowed, and so that was fun and Trevor met up with us and we had fun, but I switched to water then because I was yeah, I was basically just like tapped out. Then we went home and it ended up being a thunderstorm, but I fell asleep in the car and then the next day I was just very much exhausted. I woke up and I was like I need to take a shower and have an Advil and then I'm going to go pick up a row in a bit and then drop profit school and I'm just going to stay in bed and watch Love Island all day, which is exactly what I did. But honestly, even though I didn't feel well, the next day I had a fun night and the next day I got to watch Love Island in bed all day and I had the ability to do that. So it was fantastic. That was a great day. So that was my rose.

Speaker 1: 43:15

And then my thorn is that I was just feeling so irritable and irritated. And just off yesterday it was such a Monday Monday but it all turned around. Once I decided like it was caffeine and then I hung out outside. After I picked up a row, we played outside till dinner time and that changed a lot of things. Like I was expending it energy, I was outside with nature. I wasn't wearing shoes, though I was grounding you know I love a good grounding moment so I just was feeling so, so much better. And then now, knowing that that was what the situation situation issue was and that I'm making the change, I just feel so much better for it. Always turning my thorns into buds and then my bud.

Speaker 1: 44:02

Hmm, what am I looking forward to. You know, I'm kind of in this like, um, lou, like in the next couple of weeks I don't really have too much stuff going on, which is fantastic because I feel like I'm coming off of a month of like, go, go, go, go go, so I'm really embracing that. Oh, you know what I'm really excited for? Uh, fam dinners to start up with Becca again, and I need to texture. So thanks for inviting me. I'm going to texture after this and see what she wants for dinner tomorrow, and so I'm looking forward to cooking dinner. That'll be so fun. Um, I always like to do a little like, I like to ask what she wants, but I always like to make something that I've never made before, like a new type of bread or appetizer or whatever. And then we're also having another family birthday party this weekend um, with Trevor's fam, which will be oh wait, did we do that? No, that wasn't last weekend. I'm so, I'm so thrown off. But we're also having, um, yeah, another um birthday party because we have to celebrate the rest of the September birthdays and Trevor's is at the end of September and now that Becca's home, we have to include Becca in it as well. So that'll be fun to have a little family family day on Saturday. So it'll be like a nice family week and we are taking an easy and chill accent.

Speaker 1: 45:20

And for the rest of the day I'm going to fold laundry. I have a bit more laundry to fold. I think I have two more loads and I'm going to watch Love Island while I do that. And, um, obviously I'm going to work on getting this all uploaded and so far, so good. I think the video is going to export. I've had no notifications, so I'm just so excited. Um, let's get into our entertainment recap. Okay, cute, I've been watching Love Island. It's back on. Hey you and I'm being patient.

Speaker 1: 45:48

I feel like this year they're doing it different. This year I'm not sure I gave up, because I I got into it and then I got Trevor to find it for me somewhere that I could watch the whole thing right away, because I was like I can't wait, cause I think they were doing it one every day, but now they're doing seven episodes at a time. So, um, you could do with that as you please within the seven days until they upload the next one. And, yeah, I don't do it one a day. I pretty much do like a chunk. I'm probably almost done the seven, because I feel like I had it on in the background all day yesterday.

Speaker 1: 46:19

The thing with Love Island is it's one of those things where some some moments are so into it and then others like it's just background. You know what I mean, like, because it's it's a lot of content they're filming every day, um, but yeah, there's nobody that I'm like absolutely obsessed with. Yet there's one girl that I love, but I can't even think of her name because I feel like they haven't featured her that much. Um, and I really don't even know anyone's name. The only girl's name I know is Molly, because I feel like she's just boop bopping all around and she's definitely like the person who I feel like the girls have the most tension with and she's creating like more drama on the boyfriend and I don't know. Like I.

Speaker 1: 46:57

The beginning I was like, oh, I like Molly, but then I was like, yeah, I can see how Molly like doesn't communicate very clearly Like she. She says one thing to the camera and to the girls, but then doesn't tell the boys what's going on, so like I could see both sides. But, um, yeah, so I am not. I've thought I was full. The only issue is I thought I was fully hooked after the first seven episodes they gave us, but then, because I had like so many days to wait, it's like, oh, I forgot what was happening. So it's like that's an issue. Um, because now it's like, oh, am I hooked again? I'm not sure, but the first girl bomb shells just came in, and I always say the first girl bomb shells to come in is when the show really begins, like I feel like that's when people really start, um, spice and stuff up and things really start happening. So I'm, I'm excited.

Speaker 1: 47:46

If you're watching hey, you are. If you're watching, hey, you. If you're watching Love Island, always feel free to come over to my DMs and chat with me about it. I'm trying to think I, I didn't do, do? I didn't do entertainment recap last week because we were like so far already the episode Um.

Speaker 1: 48:01

But I'm trying to think of what content I watched. Well, uh, well, I was on break but honestly I didn't watch too much stuff. I feel like I was like boop bopping around. But there is Virgin River on Netflix, I saw. But we only have Netflix on one of our TVs. You know how Netflix is weird now and you can only like. They're like location based, so we only have it logged into one of our TVs, where I rarely watch things anymore. Like, I feel like I'm really big on watching things on my iPad right now, um, because I can like bring it with me while I'm doing different chores. But yeah, so I don't have Netflix on there, so I haven't started it. But Virgin River is definitely like to me like a cozy folly show, so when it officially feels like cozy fall, maybe I'll start that one.

Speaker 1: 48:43

And then I'm trying to think, oh, I watched the summer. I turned pretty, which was so sad that season I knew. Like I remember when I read the summer I turned pretty books. Like I remember the first one. I was like, oh my gosh, and they're quick reads, they're such quick reads. And then the second one, I remember being like what happened, like it was so it took me like I remember feeling like so sad that entire book. So I feel like they did a good representation of that and I can't remember Sorry, I need to cough I can't remember exactly what happens in the third book. Like I know I can remember who she ends up with, but I don't remember, I don't remember the vibe of it, like I really can't remember. So I'm looking forward to it. We're going to have to wait like a whole year, probably even more, because there's the uh strike and stuff going on.

Speaker 1: 49:31

I'm not sure if they've already filmed it. Um, yeah, I, I really enjoyed it. I mean it's just a good show. I just loved it. Like I just really enjoyed it. Like it was definitely like not the same vibe as the first season, but they did a good job of representing the book that way, because that's how I felt it was and you have to feel that pull. You need the emotionals.

Speaker 1: 49:51

So, yeah, I watched the summer. I turned pretty, and I'm trying to think if there was anything else that I watched, but really I don't think there was no. And I did see the Barbie movie. I don't know if I talked about that. I feel like I didn't, and I was not as obsessed with it as I thought I was going to be. Like I feel like everyone was like oh my gosh, I cried Da, da, da, da. And so I was fully expecting like, okay, when am I going to cry? When am I going to cry? And I saw the part where you thought you were going to cry was when the Billie Eilish song came on and they flashed like womanhood in front of your eyes, like I saw that. That was the part, but like it wasn't getting to me the way that other things get to me. And I liked the Barbie movie. I thought it was funny but I thought it really just scratched the surface of feminism and, like a lot of things, I also kind of was confused because the woman Barbies switched so quickly to the men. I felt like they made them like so wishy washy where it's like I know what I want, I don't know. So anyways, I did enjoy it but it wasn't like the best thing ever.

Speaker 1: 50:49

My favorite movie this year was Dear God it's hey God, it's me, margaret. Like that was the epitome of everything I loved. I cried so many times during that movie. I loved the summer camp vibes. I also loved that book growing up. I also wasn't a huge Barbie girl growing up, like I loved Groovy Girls and Polly Pocket. So maybe that emotional connection wasn't there, but like that book it was me Margaret. Hey God, it's me, margaret. Like I love that book growing up. I think it was such a beautiful relationship that they shared the mom and the daughter. I also think it touched me because, like, not only did it play to me as a daughter, but it played to me as a mother of a daughter, like, oh, I need to watch that movie again. I loved it so, so much, so that was my, like, favorite movie so far of this year. But, yeah, I think that's everything I've been watching pretty much.

Speaker 1: 51:37

And I just started listening to Guts Olivia's new album. So I'm about, I think, actually just finished it this morning in the car. I was gonna say I'm about halfway through, but that was yesterday and then I think I finished it this morning. So that was a car listen, and now I'm gonna have to do it on a walk listen when I do it in headphones and, yeah, I think I enjoyed it. But also it was a car listen, so there were rowers in the car sometimes because I was driving her to and from school, so that means I didn't fully get to listen to every lyric, but that's what I'm listening to at the moment. So that's where we're at, cutes.

Speaker 1: 52:10

Thank you so much for joining me. Go follow me over on TikTok, because we're doing snack timber If you want to check out all the snacks I'm eating this month and on Instagram, for you know all the daily updates, and also I'm just sharing a lot of, like, food pics. I feel like I'm just like taking more pictures of my food, so, if that's something you're into, I love you all so, so, so, so much, and I'm excited to come back next week and find out what my rose was for this week ahead of me. Love you all. Sunny hugs, sunny kisses. Muah muah, muah, muah, muah, muah, muah, muah, muah muah.